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Truth of it is: It's almost 80 degrees in my room at midnight, and the humidity feels like 100%. Yesterday we had tornadoes, and I've had a long week. I haven't written much in the past two weeks, making everything feel longer. Whenever I think too much about getting published, its harder to write. The publishing aspect is terrifying and overwhelming, and it seems impossible. It's like the more I learn, the more I realize I don't know anything about writing a book. And in the end, as much as I love my book, as well written as I think it is, how do I know if its actually good, if other people with read it? How can I know that? I have no experience with this sorta thing. I am very good at calling what's going to be successful and what's going to fail in the way of TV shows, movies, and music, so I guess I have an idea of what's popular. But I can't clearly see my work. I'm always afraid that I'm a really, really bad author, and I just don't...

I finished Switched last week, and I think it turned really good. I started the sequel, but I haven't gotten very far. I think I need a little break. I've been writing almost continuously since January, while also reading and editing my own books, and reading a few other books. So my heart just isn't in it this week, I guess. I've been working on Aether a little bit, tho, the third book in the Blood Approves series. Finished a new chapter the other night, and that was good. Right now I'm just obsessing over getting things published. I hate how I'm required to wait about everything. I understand how hard and irritating it must be to be an agent. I remember the first book I wrote (not completely terrible, but not any good either) and those ridiculous query letters I sent off. I had no idea what I was doing, and I'm sure so many other people are the same way. I've also read stuff from people who thought they were writers, and the work is barely legible. I...

I've written over 30k words in five days. Am I published yet? "Switched" is awesome. I really enjoy it. Finn is a bit more archetypal, but I think Wendy is less so, so it evens out. Jack was a very different hero from the ones I was used to, and I did that on purpose. He was clumsy and funny and charming and not the most attractive. Finn is smooth and strong and brooding and intelligent. But I like them both equally. That would be a fun love triangle. But not today. Not any day. "Switched" requires no vampire assistance.

All I am going to say is that my new book is called "Switched" and it's flippin awesome. It's NOT about vampires, either, but it is an urban fantasy. And it's pretty fancy. I will also say that Zachary Quinto is gosh darn sexy. That's not entirely related. Well, not at all, really. But... oh well. I wrote 11k words tonight, and I am proud of that achievement. I have at least one sequel in mind, but I'm not really sure if I have anything beyond that. Either way, this is gonna be awesome. I think this has a chance at success cuz it's an urban fantasy not about vampires. And some people are sick of that. I don't know. I'm trying things. That's all I can do. And even if nobody else likes this, I do.

While that seems mighty obvious to everyone that there is no magic hand that just sweeps in and makes all you dreams come true, it gets to easy believe/hope that one might exist. After you've done the hard work of writing the book, you assume that you can just sit back and relax and someone will just take it from there. And when then wasn't the case, my initial reaction was to sob and assume that there was something with wrong with me and give up. Somebody rejected me for a reason, and that reason must be that I'm the worst writer ever. I should never be allowed near the written word. Is this true? Doubtful. It wasn't until I saw Mark Hoppus giving advice to Pete Wentz about what up and coming kids needed to do in order make bands happen that it finally hit me. He worked his ass off to get where he was at, and he is far more charming than I am. Maybe better looking too. So again, I thought that it was easier for him. And you know what? Maybe it was. But chances are, I...

I think the next novel I write will take place in the 80's. I am obsessed with that decade. I just think it would be so awesome to turn on the radio and here it. And make mix tapes. And see John Hughes in theaters. And watch Golden Girls . (RIP Bea Arthur :( ) Tonight I watched Family Guy and there was a reference to Silence of the Lambs and I almost wet myself with glee. I finished re-editing my first book for the last time until someone professional does it. It's good as I can humanly make it on my own. And I've read it twenty times in three months, so I'm ready to take a break from reading it. I need to go back to working on third book, but I haven't felt like it cause I've been working so heavy on the first one. This is really hard. I've worked harder on this than I have on anything else in my entire life, but I'm going to continue working hard on it until I get what I want. If I never get what I want, then I guess I'll just work hard until I d...

I cut 3.5K words from my book and rearranged my chapters in hopes of making the book more fast paced and enticing. Did I succeed? Doubtful. Why did I wrote this book, tho? -I like writing -I really really really wanna get published -I like everything in the book If this book were a song, it would be called "A Few of My Favorite Things." But it wouldn't be in The King and I . Look, I've read a lot of vampire books and teen books, and I think they talk down to the audience. I wanted to write something that stayed true to the things they enjoyed (i.e. boys, money, sex) but that wasn't so stupid or contrived. I wanted something smart and funny, but still attract that same girl that's obsessing over Twilight and Gossip Girl . But I also wanted to write something for people like me. People who really really enjoy Molly Ringwald, but really really enjoyed Not Another Teen Movie when they made of fun how tragically unique she was. You get what I'm saying? I love ...